Meet me, Esther. I am telling you, Don’t quit your daydream.
I laugh at the thought that people around me think I am confident.
I hate lacking confidence. I hate having to feel that I should know the perfect answer or perfect question to be audible. I hate being forcefully quiet, when there are commotion of words in my mind which are bursting for freedom through my lips.
From social meetings to business meetings, from university classes to social entrepreneurship classes, I have so much to share but somehow find my tongue glued to the top of my mouth. And I don’t like it. I want to share knowledge and experiences, I want to clarify things in my head. I just want to be confident. I don’t want to feel like I’m 200% there before I can contribute something valuable. Hence, it took me a while to start Cocospring. You know how it is when you see other amazing mummy bloggers (and rightly so) and you feel confused on how to place yourself. However, after much encouragement to share snippets of Isabel’s growth diary, combined with a craving to just be me, I thought I start Cocospring. I’m sure people who meet me in person would wonder if I was the same person behind these pages of the world wide web, but hey ho!
I want to use this to tell someone out there…don’t quit your daydream! Don’t let your perceived limitations limit you! I believe that God didn’t allow the fact that the earth and heaven was just pretty shapeless to limit Him from creating Eden, Zanzibar, Brecon Beacons National Park and Mù Cang Chải. He made me and you and cannot make a counterfeit. You may not see the future, but God does, and He is the enabler, the empower-king and He is pretty dynamic. Sometimes, we feel like we have gone down the wrong route, the wrong path, the wrong type of work, the wrong career, the wrong degree and it feels like you have wasted time. This wrong can make you quit. But God can make all things work together for GOOD. There will be a point where, if you let Him, he can turn things around and make you totally achieve your purpose. That wrong path, wrong career, wrong of everything can be the backbone of you achieving that dream. There is hope. I can only talk because whilst I do not know the future – I cannot control the future, but I can definitely place all my dreams into His Hands and Hope, work, play and enjoy each moment.
So, Esther, what is your daydream?
Margaret Atwood once said “potential has a shelf life”. I want to challenge the notion of potential and make it a reality. I want challenge the potential of my mind and make it a reality. I want to make celebrations a real celebration. I want to celebrate my daughter, my marriage, my past and my future. I want to change the potential of other creatives around the world to a trading reality, particularly the unknown beautiful artisans in remote villages. I want live my vision where I want to see cities happier, villages empowered, girls seeing their worth and the young led to lead.
This blog is a celebration of celebrations, and celebrating motherhood. I want my girl to know her worth and that she can lead. Because home is really where the heartbeat is. I need to see London happier. I want to share a little knowledge on how to make your little ones celebration a party to remember. It is not easy or a walk in hyde park, but something which takes up emotional and physical muscle and needs me finding joy in the smallest things.
God has hidden every precious thing in such a way that it is a reward to the diligent, a prize to the earnest, but a disappointment to the slothful soul. All nature is arrayed against the lounger and the idler. The nut is hidden in its thorny case; the pearl is buried beneath the ocean waves; the gold is imprisoned in the rocky bosom of the mountains; the gem is found only after you crush the rock which encloses it; the very soil gives its harvest as a reward to the laboring farmer. So truth and God must be earnestly sought. – A. B. Simpson
I want to thank each and everyone of you for voting for me, I am beyond grateful. Within a few months, I have been nominated for BiBs Award….as in Wowza! When I received the email, I was beyond shocked that I couldn’t even talk about it for a few days. I wonder why I was so astonished! Maybe because I have boxed my blog to ‘can’t get very far’ category? Oh Esther! The next stage is to get to the finals of which you can help me reach by voting for me here or by clicking the image below. I’m the first one on the list. 🙂
I would be honoured to be there. However, even if I do not win, I can definitely share the story of courage. I got to remember that “The lines are fallen unto me in pleasant places; yea, I have a goodly heritage.”-Psalm 16:6
And I leave you with a powerful quote by Ellen Johnson Sirleaf, “The size of your dreams must always exceed your current capacity to achieve them. If your dreams do not scare you, they are not big enough”.